Move Along, :)

Hey YOU!

I have decided to move on and blog somewhere else.

so I'm not gonna delete this blog, just for memories.

my new blog url is

www.oopsieedaisy.blogspot.com

goodbye this blog!

Dont hate the world, cause the world doesnt want to be hated.

Just like when you think someone is a slut, how would that person feel?
If someone thought you are a slut, how would YOU feel?

So hey,

i'm SO SUPER DUPER SUPER DUPER BUSY. Like so busy, I dont have time to breathe.
I've been as busy as a bee.

But I still have this time, to crap everything out

Lets start with concert practices,
I feel very sorry for Khye Jhun, cause you know why? He has me for his dance partner. :P
He has to hold my waist, and i'm very ticklish.
Today, I burst out laughing, TWICE.
And I made an embarassment out of myself. TWICE!
And also, TODAY, i accidentally slapped him with  my ponytail. Poor boy ):
but on lighter note, our dance is FINISHED! I mean, finish choreographing already. And obviously well done to our choreographer, mainly, Cheah Cheng and Rose, as well as Zhi Xuan :D
Did you know, Zhi Xuan can do a split like, LIKE THAT! It is so cool

And being Assistant Monitor, has kicked my ass off. Seriously, I've been getting so pissed at myself lately. I havent been quite jolly for a while.
Part of me wants to be a normal student again,
while the other part of me keeps on telling me, to not give up, cause i'm half way there already. I'm going to be monitor till form 5 get a post, join Leo or Interact, get a post, and just do SOMETHHING AMAZING.
but like i said, the other side, wants me to give up everything, just be myself, cause i'm suppose to feel free and do something MORE AMAZING.

I really REALLY REALLY wish, i can somehow start again. Its just that I'm not excited for school anymore.

And i've been so depressed due to some private issue. I just feel like SLAPPING SOMEONE.

UGH. sorry sorry.

I'm very upset/ depressed/ retarded/ angry and whatever not

thanks for listening
suetwei

:D

First of all, i'm super duper ultra sorry, and I have to be sorry again for the next few weeks.

I need to blog about ALOT of stuff but i'm sorry, you have to wait. And I really dont like to post pictures on facebook. :P

So, here are just sneak peaks :P

YEH YEH'S SUPERMASSIVE 90TH BIRTHDAY! :D

and

here's just a little something to keep you in a suspense, though i already gave such a BIG HUGE CLUE :P

I'll be away again, due to mid terms. I know you'll miss me but dont miss me that much. I'm sorry that I kept my blog private for so long, I wanted to make a change but then the internet connection down, and I really think I shouldnt keep you guys waiting. i'm sorry.

i'll be back,

with FLYING COLOURS. :P

now, where was I. oh right..

ringkasan.

screw it.

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Appreciation

First of, I think I really need to change my url, to a cooler one, maybe i'll just change it to
http://www.kissmybackside.blogspot.com/
Okay I was joking I was thinking of, www.rainbowsandhoneydrops.blogspot.com :)

But before I change it, I gotta clear up my other posts first.
So back to the title,
I finally understand the quote "We appreciate the things only after they are gone" I mean I knew what it meant, but have you actually felt it?

Case 1.
I miss my old maid, she was the only person I could blast everything on when i'm sad, sometimes she doesnt get it, but nevermind, but when she was here, I only see the BAD side of her, about how annoying she can get at times, now that she's gone, I really miss her, and guess what? God gave me a second chance! She's coming back in another two months! :D

that was kinda lame but yeah.

Case 2.
When I was in primary school, at times when i'm so so sad, I would be sad for like a whole week, I actually lost a whole week of happiness and everything in standard 6, one week? Can you bring last week back?

 So I guess I need to finish up this post before I can continue, I've got alot to tell you.
And just so you know, I have been kinda, grounded from the computer, cause YOU KNOW WHY!
And apparently, i've been blogging too much. theres another word for that my Dad used, but I cant remember it now.

I'll be back!

Happy April Fools Day! :P

suetwei

Sky

Do you enjoy playgrounds? I do, especially on swings. Cause I get to fly up so high and touch the sky.
But, I always have a hard time swinging and pushing myself high enough.
I can never win a  "who swings higher" competition. I see people swing up so high, and I always needed someone to push me to swing as high. I could never swing my legs enough.

Today, was a pretty rough day. I got mentally slapped twice in a row. My horrible results led me to a depression for a moment. I was nearly in tears when I saw my Science results. I was wondering how could I have done so badly. I remembered putting alot of effort for Science. I was quite sure I was at least going to B it. I got a C.

And I got advices saying, "You'll do better next term."
I've heard that before last year.

I didn't do any better.
Maybe I didnt put as much effort as the exam needed me to have.

I came home and showered and decided to go to the park.
I sat on the swing, just swinging a little, soon I felt that I could reach the sky. I was quite pleased with myself.
I pushed myself harder. I felt that wonderful breeze that brushed my face, it felt wonderful.
I was close up to the sky.

I walked home and thought to myself, "hey, maybe one day, i'll actually touch the sky"

If I push myself harder next time, yeah perhaps, I might actually ace something.

I felt happier as I walked home, I smiled, genuinely. Not that I dont, when I smile at you people.
Its just, I felt different, though my results were horrible I felt and I knew that I would touch the sky one day.
I knew it.

Sometimes, I feel that, i'm actually quite independent. Cause I am able to make myself feel better without anyone.
All the time, when my parents ask me for my results, I never actually hear a "I'm so proud of you"
its usually a "Why like this?!" and blablabla.

Never do I actually get a "Hey, girl, dont give up yet." well maybe I actually do, but maybe sometimes I dont hear it.
With that, i'd feel assured and I might actually work harder and I would have a stronger will to want an A.

I tell myself, I will work harder, I study my butt off sometimes but I never get an A.
I studied so hard for Sejarah, I got a 75. I was satisfied, but that satisfaction doesnt satisfy me when I think that I could have done better.

Getting scolded is actually the last thing I want to get when I tell them my results, but its usually the first.
The end of the day, all I can actually do is cuddle myself into sleep in tears and probably go to school with swollen eyes.

It's very hard to reach other people's expectations of you. My mum always tells people that i'm a smart girl but lazy. I dont actually think thats true at all. I am not smart in my academics but probably when it comes to other nonsense.
and I'm actually not that lazy to study. I'm just kinda lazy to do Maths.
I'm not smart, really.
I actually HATE going to school and stare at the teacher teaching.
I actually HATE having tuition, when half the time I get lectured for my attitude,
I actually want to scream and run out of class and tear my exam papers and books.
I actually HATE learning.

But what can I actually do about it, it's like the law to go to school and learn and all those sorta stuff.

At times, I feel very happy in Choir, though I dont have friends in Soprano but hey! I feel so happy I get to sing and just throw everything. I feel so happy.
I actually like acting. and drama, you know those kinda stage performances sorta stuff.
I actually love playing netball, cause I actually feel good at it.

I just guess, studying is not my thing, as much as I want to get alot of A's and make my parents so happy and be as good as my sister.

You know, I actually was very scared when I took my UPSR. When I got 5A's i felt on top of the world, I was so happy I cried.
Maybe because, I could achieve what my sister had achieved before.
When I could do achive something like that I feel happier than anything else in the world. It might be the same for you too.

When I was opened to so many other things, I think that the world has so much more for me to do than study.
Heck yeah I want to be a successful woman. But I dont only have to be successful in my academics.
.. I just realised i'm not athletic and I am really lack of confidence to act.
I sing alot in the toilet when I shower. thats a secret.
When I'm in the toilet, I actually sound good. I could sing as loud as I wanted to, but at times, I feel like an idiot singing when i'm scrubbing soap onto myself.
And my sister would come in and tell me to shut up.

When I play the piano and I master a song, i'd play it all the time, cause i'm so proud of myself, that I can actually play something, cause you know, I suck in piano and i'm really far as good as my sister.
And when I play it so frequent,my sister would actually say "Ohmygosh come on lah is that the only song you know"
So what if it is, at least I can play something.
Maybe she only said it once, but once was enough to make me feel depressed.
Yeah I am not as good as my sister in academics in piano. In everything else.

But at least I can play netball.
At least I can control my emotions.
At least I can be more independent at times.
At least I can sing.
At least I can take pictures.
At least I am actually brave enough to take risks.

Thats what I think of myself, and maybe you dont agree with me but who knows me more, YOU or myself?

Perhaps maybe, my sister can make tomato rice, when I cant even fry an egg.
Maybe she can get an A in Physics and I fail my Maths.
But one day I'll fill my sisters shoe. Or maybe make my own shoe, in many different ways.
I WILL and you know it.

And my parents always say that I give up halfway in everything I do.
I dont give up. I just think that, it's not what I want to do.
Its my life right? Why cant I choose what I want to do and what I want to drop?
Like I quit after white belt of taekwondo.
There was once I stopped Piano and continued again and now I'm not learning the exam syllabus. And I know people learn piano to get like extra credit for University and college. But I think that if piano is for me to enjoy myself and just throw in whatever I have on the keys then I actually enjoy myself.
Some people get so stressed over piano exams.

Currently, I dont have any extra credit, i'm in form 2 already. I guess I got to find something I want to do and put in my best.
And be extraordinary in whatever sort.

I'm just going to smile for the rest of the week. Is doing badly in an exam a reason for me to depress myself?
I guess not, and I usually would say I'd put in more effort next time, but seriously I dont want to.
But I'll try hard for the Mid term exam. How much I hate it, I just got to be best friends with it.

I'd wish and dream, i'd risk myself to take chances, just as long as I make a good change and I'm happy :)

Thanks for your time,

suetwei♥

really, i need to thank you for your time, it was a bloody long post. :)

p/s: Please ignore my terrible usage of English and I sometimes wonder how I actually get into set 1 English.

Dramas

Do you enjoy watching TV?
Especially those really drama drama teen shows like Glee, Gossip Girl, or 90210 or maybe One Tree Hill etc.

On TV, there are actually perfect men or women. ;)

Have you actually wanted something so badly, you lock yourself in your room and blast sad music?
I have. ):

How often I feel like pushing my troubles away, turn on the cheesiest movies, and start feeling like I myself is in that show.

Movies and shows always have the most fantastic ending after a whole lot of drama.

I wonder who actually reads my posts. like its full of crap.

Its a Saturday afternoon, I just want to snuggle on the sofa and watch TV and post posts that doesnt actually make sense.

Alright, I should shut up now, (:

Why cant life be more like shows on TV?

So simple yet complicated but at the end theres always a happy ending.

Thanks for your time,

suetwei♥

Little People

I see joy in little kids :)

OMFA, my brother looks so cute here :D

Do you know why he's so cute, my brother mah xP

Thea!

I think thats how you spell her name.

She's so pretty, her eyes are so BIG, and shes so OMFA-ing cute :O

She's my niece.

It runs in the family, we are all good looking :)

Brandon :D

Handsome lah he (:

My nephew.

okay, i'm really bored, and I just felt like posting these pictures.

hehe.

thanks for your time,

suetwei